Getting back into it: Finishing what I’ve started

Getting back into writing is a struggle. I put aside my writing to pack up our house in country Victoria; travel around speaking about what we’re doing with MAF, move to Cairns, settle in, as much as possible with no permanent house and watch Matt go off to full-time work, while I stay at home with our two energetic boys and return to full-time mum. I’ve found it very difficult to find the time and energy to even think about my writing.

Where do I start?

When do I write?

What was I writing about?

What I’ve concluded is that I have to finish what I’ve started. I am so good at starting things and never finishing them; starting off a book or a Bible study, reading ‘how to write books’ and yes, starting to write a book and getting scared about how to finish.

So, my first task that I’ve assigned myself is to finish all my unfinished projects. I finished reading the book of John (great book). I’m about to finish reading one of my ‘how to write’ books and Psalms (also great books) and I finally worked up the courage to look at my book in progress again (hopefully a great book).

So no magic formula, just one step in front of the other to finish what I’ve started. I'm hoping this will be my springboard back into writing.

Freeze

Writing has been put on hold for the moment as I think about once again packing up our house and moving interstate. This is the second time in as many years that we’ve done such a major move. I’ve been frustrated that I don’t have the time to write, that my work is just on hold for the time being until who knows when.

I haven’t even written on this blog since March and I’m not sure when I’ll get the chance to write again.  One thing that I am thankful for in all of this is that my work is transportable. I can take it wherever I go and so far my life has been one of moving from place to place.

So, for this new season of transition, hopefully short, the writing will be frozen until I once again have the time and space to sit down and think coherently about my stories. 

The Next Step in the Journey

Pep Talk

I’m having one of those days where I sit at the computer and cry because I’m so incredibly frustrated that I just can’t seem to get out what it is that I want to say in a way that will actually make sense and is well written. I feel like I’m banging my head against this invisible force field. One of my main problems is that I have to cut down to one day a week of writing. This means stress-head Linsey goes into overload trying to cram into one day what I would normally try and do it two. This, of course is impossible but I still try and do it.

I keep telling myself; just breathe, there is no deadline on this. The more time I take, the more I think about it, the more I let ideas stew and become fully complete, the better chance I have of communicating well and being understood.

So, pep talk done, it’s time to get back to work.

What exactly am I working on? At the moment I’ve got two picture books that I’m tweaking, trying to get the perfect word to make the perfect sentence (urrrgggg). Also, I’ve got a manuscript for a children’s book that I’m going over again for the 32^nd time (actually I don’t know how many times I’ve gone over it). These are the ones that I have in front of me at the present and I’m not thinking about the other half-baked manuscripts sitting in my computer’s memory.

So writing…. Just do it!

All in Good Time

One of the major things that I am learning as I go through this writing journey is that writing takes time. 

I naively thought, at the beginning of my journey, that if I sat down and wrote and finished a story— I could send it to some friends, maybe get a manuscript appraisal and ‘whala’ – it would be finished. Done and dusted, on to the next project.

This is not how it works. Well, at least, for me, this is not how it works. And I am so pleased to find out that it’s not how it works for other people as well. I’ve been encouraged to read other writer’s journeys and how it might take years to get a first novel, picture book, children’s book etc. completed and then published.

That probably doesn’t sound encouraging but I guess in a way I was thinking, “Quick, get this done as fast as I can.” Stress, stress, stress.

I don’t know why I was thinking that but I was. No that's not true, I know why I was, cause I'm a stress pot. But I've admitted it now and I'm getting help.

Now it’s more like, “I want to get this right. I want to write a good story. So I’ll take my time about it. Learn more, write better, get advice and hopefully make my stories the best they can be—in time.” 

Time, Time, Time, Time

I have to be one of the most impatient people in the whole world. Okay a lot of exaggeration went into that sentence, but that’s how I feel so much of the time, especially with two boys under five.

So what does one do when so much of writing has to do with letting a manuscript sit so that ideas can evolve and mulling can take place? And I quote, “Time is your friend.”

When writing picture books or probably any book really. Write it and then put it away for a couple of weeks. Then take it out again and see how you feel. Okay, fair enough. I can put it away but what in the heck am I supposed to do in the mean time?

Write something else. Yes, I can understand that and I would love to as I have a few projects on the go. (I’ve discovered that I write how I read, a few books at a time.)

But going from one book to another, let along going from one age group to another or one genre to another is really quite brain boggling. 

So, I’m still in the learning process; learning how I write, how I work, how my brain functions (which is a bit of a worry sometimes).

Who knew all of this would crop up with a simple decision to write? 

After the course

I just finished my ‘Writing Picture Books’ course and I can officially say that writing picture books is hard work! I applaud anyone who even attempts it. My brain feels full to overflowing with all the information I’ve been cramming into it over the past six weeks. I feel like I’ve been given the tools to take my writing further.

I’ve been doing my writing courses through ‘The Australian Writer’s Centre’, if anyone is interested. They do a great job.

I have decided that I’m trying to do too much with my writing at the moment. I’ve got stories galore on the back burners and they’re all from different age groups.

I’ve got to figure out how to focus on one thing at a time, without getting distracted by everything else that I’m interested in exploring.

So maybe I need to actually plan my year out and try and finish something instead of starting and starting and starting.